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I've taken all i can stand

i am well aware of the not fitting in i do in about oo 90% of jobs that i have what with not having a clue how to be fashionable, girly, bitchy to someone 30 seconds after speaking nice things to their face and i dont particularly care either.

I am horrified today though, i worked with office angels before xmas in network rail and it was a joke, i done nothing but they thought i was great and extended the contract multiple times ...

Went to bp today came home and got a call to tell me that bp think im "an insufferable know it all" and that "im unsympathetic" weird... how can i be sympathetic when someones ordering gas???

So i asked if this would affect more jobs and i was told network rail didnt like me either, but here get this the girl i was temping for was off for 85% of the time i was there.. and that they constantly extended my contract and the fact that i finished there in november and no one cracked a light...

im actually more upset than i care to admit about this, it shook me quite bad and im not quite sure what to do

dont s

I had loads that i wanted to put in this entry, as usual i come to write and my mind goes blank....

Been chilling out this week, no hassles no worries... well not much anyways. Went up to see the social worker the other day and she was allright actually...

Been offered two houses... one in 'spiershall close' which we went to see yesterday... there was something not right about the place that i just couldnt figure out... so we will probably give that one a miss...

Watched scrubs last night, and damn it one of the characters had on a t shirt thats someone in heres avatar (henry chinaski).. you changed your blog title and confused me btw....

My insomnia is back with a vengence which sucks donkey arse, i'm uber fed up just now, my head may implode!

I realised that theres something missing and i dont know what, had a surreal few days with Laura speaking to me again... She said Grace is nice, which im sure she is, the girl thinks im false and i actually cant be arsed to prove her wrong, nor do i care that much, just something thats on my mind....

I cant wait to get out this house for good, no more shite, im going out tonight with a few folks i know.. will see others i like too no doubt, but hopefully not barries mate.. he was rather .. err odd...

I feel like im just plodding through life and that everyone and thing is passing me by... i get like that at times though, feel theres no one there when there is, i suppose its half my fault though, i dont talk to my friends enough, i hate to burden people, but i do get frustrated with the lack of chat and just relaxing. My old friend charlene is annoying me just now.... she is just so nosy.. its the only word i can use to describe how i feel when she speaks to me.. i feel like my life is being pried into it.. and that disturbs me.. she seems to have changed since meeting matt ... or maybe its me thats changed???? Humph i dont know...

im going to go shopping today me thinks... and that is enough excitement from me today...

xmas

had a fucking guid un

im loved :)

Wookend

Weekend was relaxing, was off Thursday so didnt really do much. On Friday i was off as well, so just chilled out went to look for some irregular choice shoes and seen me Reno. Went to his to give him his 24 back , got to his and realised id forgotten 24... FUCK

Went for dinner on Friday night with Ed, had good chat with him and some immense food at I-Chai on crow road, i had chicken noodle soup, ed had won tun soup. I had fried chicken with strawberrys in plum sauce which was absolutely immense and ed had some chiceny spicy thing yshiang chicken if i remember correctly, Stayed in as had no baby sitter on Friday, relaxed all weekend, got my ear spacing loosened off then on Saturday just went to Arnold Clark to look for a car, seen a volkswagen polo that we quite like, we will have to see...

Meh ed's being kute damn him to hell "I'm sitting here in front of a computer screen and I'd rather be holding you close to me just for another moment... I'd give my soul just to hold you again" I mean seriously is he trying to make me cry at my desk :???

As for other things, you know im always the bigger person regardless of circumstances, and its quite nice to be that person, im blatently skiving at work :D I rule all :)

Christmas soon ... wee :)

Wookend

Weekend was relaxing, was off Thursday so didnt really do much. On Friday i was off as well, so just chilled out went to look for some irregular choice shoes and seen me Reno. Went to his to give him his 24 back , got to his and realised id forgotten 24... FUCK

Went for dinner on Friday night with Ed, had good chat with him and some immense food at I-Chai on crow road, i had chicken noodle soup, ed had won tun soup. I had fried chicken with strawberrys in plum sauce which was absolutely immense and ed had some chiceny spicy thing yshiang chicken if i remember correctly, Stayed in as had no baby sitter on Friday, relaxed all weekend, got my ear spacing loosened off then on Saturday just went to Arnold Clark to look for a car, seen a volkswagen polo that we quite like, we will have to see...

Meh ed's being kute damn him to hell "I'm sitting here in front of a computer screen and I'd rather be holding you close to me just for another moment... I'd give my soul just to hold you again" I mean seriously is he trying to make me cry at my desk :???

As for other things, you know im always the bigger person regardless of circumstances, and its quite nice to be that person, im blatently skiving at work :D

I rule all :)

Christmas soon ... wee :)

BT

Back here today, not very exciting, had an amazing weekend though, helped vonnie move from govanhill to eastkilbride... drove behind her in her LOVELY :p red van... Helped them up and down stairs with gumph, got fed pizza and juice, then headed home....

Sunday, relaxed for a bit, went to ikea got Rachel a rainbow for her bed, you know one of those canopy things that you put over?? made her cot into a bed, cleaned the room, ordered in chinese food, watched 24 and had a jolly ole time with Ed.. I legit had an amazing weekend with him. Went to boots in braehead when i was over at ikea getting Rachel some stuff.... Spent an absolute fortune in there, got some bath and shampoo stuff for Rachel for her bath eh bum... Got some wax to fix my eyebrows... and decided i would invest in some good skin care stuff from clinique, seen some eyeliner i would quite like so might look on the web for it later.

Being having a lil rough patch with Ed just now, but we seem to have fixed things, talked over a lot, doesnt help with the circumstances at home either... but hey least its fixed

So im all back and settled at BT feels like ive lived here all my life, just need to get a couple of new pictures taken for myself for my ID and so you know i took the job back to annoy them :) JOY!!!

anyways... back to work :)

.. i have a few things planned for someone and ive spoken to someone who knows them so i think what i have planned may work.. quite chuffed about what i have so far :)

way too many updates

I think i update way too much these days

Friday went to dinner at la fiorentina... was fucking bossellini... i meant best mushrooms EVER!!!

i made loads of yummy noises... loads and loads of them..

Had fabulous fine and sea bass with tasty mash potatoes for my main.. Couldnt eat any more after that though, totally stuffed... legit couldnt eat any more food...

Saturday morning, lying in bed... Ed started bleeding, took him to the western infirmary, waited like 3 hours then got him checked, thankfully he is fine.. Before that though Honda called me regarding the car, which they have fucked up royally the sale of, but they where pressuring me to sell it on.. *unamused*

Hoping Alan (honda manager) sorts it out for me today, so we can have the car, if not we decided we are going to go a nice foreign holiday and buy a new TV as ours is fucked royally...

Sunday, went to clydebank... shopped, bought a pair of cords and got my wee man a tie. Got Rachel a noddy in a car, which she makes dance.. and a wee fairy outfit for halloween, which she refused to take off for about 4 hours

Found out my sister may be pregnant... please fuck naw, she would make a ballocks parent...she is way too selfish...

meh

she is FAR too selfish... i feel like a bastard saying that though...

ach care

hope our car gets sorted today