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I've taken all i can stand

i am well aware of the not fitting in i do in about oo 90% of jobs that i have what with not having a clue how to be fashionable, girly, bitchy to someone 30 seconds after speaking nice things to their face and i dont particularly care either.

I am horrified today though, i worked with office angels before xmas in network rail and it was a joke, i done nothing but they thought i was great and extended the contract multiple times ...

Went to bp today came home and got a call to tell me that bp think im "an insufferable know it all" and that "im unsympathetic" weird... how can i be sympathetic when someones ordering gas???

So i asked if this would affect more jobs and i was told network rail didnt like me either, but here get this the girl i was temping for was off for 85% of the time i was there.. and that they constantly extended my contract and the fact that i finished there in november and no one cracked a light...

im actually more upset than i care to admit about this, it shook me quite bad and im not quite sure what to do

dont s

I had loads that i wanted to put in this entry, as usual i come to write and my mind goes blank....

Been chilling out this week, no hassles no worries... well not much anyways. Went up to see the social worker the other day and she was allright actually...

Been offered two houses... one in 'spiershall close' which we went to see yesterday... there was something not right about the place that i just couldnt figure out... so we will probably give that one a miss...

Watched scrubs last night, and damn it one of the characters had on a t shirt thats someone in heres avatar (henry chinaski).. you changed your blog title and confused me btw....

My insomnia is back with a vengence which sucks donkey arse, i'm uber fed up just now, my head may implode!

I realised that theres something missing and i dont know what, had a surreal few days with Laura speaking to me again... She said Grace is nice, which im sure she is, the girl thinks im false and i actually cant be arsed to prove her wrong, nor do i care that much, just something thats on my mind....

I cant wait to get out this house for good, no more shite, im going out tonight with a few folks i know.. will see others i like too no doubt, but hopefully not barries mate.. he was rather .. err odd...

I feel like im just plodding through life and that everyone and thing is passing me by... i get like that at times though, feel theres no one there when there is, i suppose its half my fault though, i dont talk to my friends enough, i hate to burden people, but i do get frustrated with the lack of chat and just relaxing. My old friend charlene is annoying me just now.... she is just so nosy.. its the only word i can use to describe how i feel when she speaks to me.. i feel like my life is being pried into it.. and that disturbs me.. she seems to have changed since meeting matt ... or maybe its me thats changed???? Humph i dont know...

im going to go shopping today me thinks... and that is enough excitement from me today...